Hardest time came at night. I have been hungry all day, so I keep asking myself why I am doing this? Since I am working the AO event, it helped that I can keep myself busy. I miss the meal time social. So I sat with Hafen and Sam and Jason English at lunch like yesterday and just drank hot water. I ordered chicken and shrimp casedia ( i dont know how to spell it) and I saved it for Jamie for dinner. It helped yesterday that I didn't have to cook for her so I thought it would be helpful today. Just so I love casedia, and when Jamie came home and had a bowl of won ton noodle soup with it, I totally broke down. We went to Arapahoe High to watch basketball playoff, the only thing I can think of is won ton noodle soup. I almost decided that I am going to come out of this tomorrow, especially david is coming home tomorrow. Then Jamie said, I think you should stay with it, just so you can say you did it.
Urrrrr....
I read some blogs on line from others who are going through this journey, I felt better.
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